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A sorry for myself!!!



Hi, I have a name, an identity, but i don't think it matters to you. It doesn't matter who I am, but the only thing that does, is what I convey. So, let's keep all the distractions aside and focus on the point.

Have you ever wondered how bad we feel when we hurt someone, intentionally or not. And then when we realise what we did, gently try to sooth that blow with a magic word, 'Sorry'.

Recently, I went through an incident where I was at the receiving end of an apology. That's when I noticed that, in the same way knowing my name hadn't mattered to you, that apology had no effect on me.

That's when I realised after we hurt a person's feelings we apologise to them, but for ourselves. Even though it is directed to them, it's our heart that's losing weight. The apology is asked not to make a change in the other person because the damage once done is never retracted, it stays. And we know that, every time. That's how we slowly lose a soul or a relationship. 

In the meantime, mouthing the sorry is only to make us feel better. It's our guilt, asking for a warm hug of comfort, an anchor to hold down the shame deep into the sea of realisation. Never, I think, the sorry was meant to them. Never, a sorry would heal that wound. And even if it did, you know which heart we mended and which soul we freed.

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  1. Anonymous9 January 2023 at 05:51

    Hi love from argentina. Even though I don't understand ur language, it's so emotionally moving .

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  2. Neha14 January 2023 at 03:20

    True that. I have always felt the same. At times, a sorry is not just enough to solve the emotional pain that it caused.

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